February
25, 2014 – 12 Weeks, 5 Days
I had my first appointment with my real
Doctor today. She is so sweet and answered a lot of my questions. She cleared
up a lot of confusion on my due date since in the beginning the measurements of
the baby on the ultrasound can vary. So my due date is officially September 4,
2014! Can’t wait to meet Baby H! We heard the heart beat on the Doppler and
everything is starting to feel so real. I am thrilled to almost be out of the
first trimester -- it helps ease my fears quite a bit! Heart beat was 164 which
she said was very good. Next appointment will be my 16 week, and I scheduled
our gender reveal ultrasound towards the end of April and I cannot WAIT for
that! Until then I am so thankful to God for giving me this baby! It’s surreal
that there is a human growing inside me and insane how much I love him/her
already!!!!
January
31, 2014 – 8 Weeks & 4 or 5 Days
Yesterday was my 8 week ultrasound. Since
last week was such an emotional rollercoaster, I felt a little anxious but
mostly calm about going to my appointment. I figure God is in control and
whatever happens, happens and I am believing for the best.
Wow, my baby has grown! Such a difference
– you can actually see his/her profile and body parts. It was very cool and
Jimmy got to hear the heart beat with met his time. 180 bpm – FAST! I was
nervous it was too fast but that is normal. Baby measured at 8 weeks 4 days
yesterday (I thought I was 8 weeks, 3 days) but they are keeping my same due
date for now – September 8th.
9 weeks will be Sunday or Monday and I’m excited to know there are only 4
weeks left for my first trimester. Let’s hope they fly by! My next apt is in 4
weeks. No more ultrasounds until my 20 week mark where I find out the gender.
Looking forward to the next appointment!
January
21, 2014 – 7 Weeks, 1 Day
I woke up this morning covered in blood.
Immediately I panicked and started to hysterically cry. I called Jimmy who was
on his way to a companywide work meeting. He explained he would try to get out
of it but I knew it was nearly impossible. I called the Dr and explained
through tears that I woke up bleeding. They scheduled an ultra sound for 30
minutes later. I called my Mom and she left work immediately to come pick me
up. I don’t know what I would do without her. She is my angel! The thoughts
running through my head were unlike anything I have experienced. Fear, panic,
sadness, loss, questions, etc. etc. With a few deep breaths we got in to the Dr
office and I decided it best I keep my sunglasses on. By that point there was
no recovering how swollen my eyes were. We went back to the ultrasound room and
I asked my Mom to join me. We were pretty quiet waiting for the ultrasound
technician to come in thinking – well this is it…I just want to know.
As soon as she started the ultrasound we
heard a loud heartbeat! I asked, “is that my baby!?” And my Mom and I
immediately started crying….again! She said, yep! OMG relief! The nurse
practitioner explained it was a sub-chorionic bleed – something that is pretty
normal. I am measuring 7 weeks and 1 day which is larger than I thought. Based
on last week’s US I should be 6 weeks and 5 days. So all is well and I feel
like I have been through the biggest emotional rollercoaster in my life. Praise
God that my baby is still alive! J
January
16, 2014 – 7 Weeks minus 1 week = 6 Weeks
Last night I got back from my work
National Sales Meeting. I flew in Thursday January 9th to spend the
night in Denver and the weekend in Keystone with my hubby before my work
meeting started Sunday evening. We had great time! Thursday we went to a comedy
variety show which was hilarious. Friday and Saturday we spent discovering
Keystone. The weather was cold and snowing but sunny which felt good. We had a
sleigh ride dinner Friday night and it was freezing but a cool experience.
Saturday Jimmy skied the mountain and I discovered River Run with some colleagues
and relaxed. Took a nap which felt great. Saturday night we were treated to a 7
course dinner which turned in to a 2 bite dinner for me. I was SO nauseous all
weekend and week. It might have had to do with the altitude but it was hard to
handle. Jimmy flew home Sunday morning and I spent the rest of the week in Vail
and Denver with work. The meetings Monday and Tuesday were all day – 7 AM to
10PM. I am SO exhausted! And the plane ride home included a computer
malfunction which caused us to de-board and catch a different flight and lose
our luggage… talk about being hormonal – I was a crying mess. All in all
though, it was really good to spend some quality time with Jimmy and it made
the week fly by!
This morning I woke up exhausted but also
extremely nervous as this was my first ultrasound appointment at 9:10AM. I had
a variety of emotions – excited, nervous, sick, questioning everything, etc.
etc. We got to my OB and they took me back for some vitals – weight and blood
pressure. I gained 4 pounds this month but I am totally blaming the carbs that
I ate all week (only thing that made me feel better!) This week it’s back on
the treadmill for me!!!! Blood pressure was good, yay!
After that we went back for the
ultrasound. The NP came in and asked how we are feeling and I automatically
answered, “nervous!” She quickly said, “let’s fix that” and before I knew it I
was looking at my baby’s heart beat on the monitor. Wow, I quickly teared up
and it made everything a reality for me. Jimmy teared up and started laughing
right away. She showed us the baby and measured the heart beat and confirmed I
am in fact only 6 weeks. Oh man – this is going to be a LONG road. But one I am
very thankful for!!!!! My official due date is now September 10th.
Of course God gave us a fall baby – my entire family is born in the early/late
fall! Can’t wait for my next appointment in 2 weeks where we can get a 3D
ultrasound and to see my baby grow more and more!
January
2, 2014 – 5 Weeks
Today marks my 5 weeks. I am anxious for
the next 7 weeks to go by and get to the 12 week mark.
Next week we leave for Denver for a min
vacation. Jimmy flies home Sunday and I stay until Wednesday the 15th for my
work National Sales Meeting. The 16th
is my first ultrasound and I can’t wait! Let’s hope time flies until then! J
I am feeling pretty good. Just very tired.
I feel like I could sleep forever. A little dizzy but not nauseous (yet…)
I did 30 minutes on the treadmill today and
plan to keep this up throughout my pregnancy. It felt good to sweat although
the heat register is directly above my treadmill. That doesn’t help much. J
Happy
New Year - Confirmation!
December 31, 2013
Today marks the last day of 2013! Jimmy
and I both agree we are going out with a bang!
We had blood work done on the 27th
and the #’s came back good as an “early” pregnancy! Praise the Lord. She asked
me to come back on the 30th just to make sure the HCG and
progesterone levels rise. I just got a call and they are HIGH! And excellent
levels! HCG at 345 and progesterone at 28.8!
I scheduled my first ultrasound for the
day I come back from Denver – January 16th!
I am believing God for a strong heart beat
and healthy baby! Until then, I am going to enjoy my N/A champagne with good
friends Lindsay and Kyle and their sweet baby Olivia tonight.
I am praying God reminds me what the end
goal is and how blessed I am to have this pregnancy. The last week has brought
a LOT of emotions (and let’s be honest my hormones are crazy) and fear of
losing friendships, or losing moments of hanging out with friends and doing
some of the things I did before I was pregnant. But God continuously snaps me
back in reality and reminds me that even though I may miss a few “moments” here
and there with some friends, the true ones will show their true colors and
stick with me through these next 9 months. And the moments I am going to gain
with my new family are priceless!
I
am in shock!!!
December 26, 2013
So it’s been about 2 hours since I took a
pregnancy test. Back up, about 5 hours.
Yesterday was Christmas and I took a
pregnancy test. Negative. My heart sank. I thought it would have been the most
amazing Christmas gift. But after 3 years and 3 months and thousands of
pregnancy tests, yet another came back negative. I figured as much since I had
been spotting a couple of days prior (which I know now was implantation
bleeding). I told my Mom yesterday I wasn’t pregnant and was super sad because
I just thought this was going to be my month…
So today I thought what the heck I’ll take another test. I don’t know why I
would do that after yesterday’s negative test but I honestly think God put it
on my heart. After about 10 seconds of waiting for a second line, I threw it in
the garbage figuring yep it’s negative and my period will probably come today
or tomorrow.
3 hours later and I went to the bathroom
to sew a seam in my shirt. I sat on my chair looking down sewing away and
glanced in the garbage to see a second line on my test. My mouth dropped to the
floor. I screamed OH MY GOSH out loud! I could barely control the shaking. My
whole body was violently convulsing. I could barely pull the test out of the
garbage. Moments of staring in disbelief I grabbed another test and waited for
the result… 2 lines! I had to sit down
because my shaking would NOT STOP!
After a moment of pulling myself together,
I jumped in my car to race to Babies R Us to buy a gift for Jimmy to surprise
him with the news when he comes home from work. And now that I am back home, time is not passing. We have
been waiting for this moment for SO LONG. As I type this he doesn’t know I am
pregnant yet. No one does but me and of course my amazing Father – the Lord
Jesus Christ. As I drove in my car, my mind raced. And immediately I was
overcome with emotion and sobbed all the way to the store. (picture below - not my prettiest moment... :)). I cried for
excitement, I cried for worry that this test was tricking me and I cried for
ever doubting that this would happen. God answers prayers and he has answered
mine. He let me celebrate his birth yesterday and today he is allowing me to
celebrate the birth of my child that will come in 9 months. I bought 4 more tests and took another at
home – this one was a digital to clearly say pregnant or not pregnant. And it
screamed at me PREGNANT.
God is good! I will never forget this moment which is why I wanted to document
it. The Lord answers prayers!!!!!!!
Tomorrow I go in to the Dr to get blood
work done and I can’t wait for the confirmation from that. I am so excited and
scared and overcome with emotion. But mainly I am thankful for my baby!!!!! I
love you so much already! Xoxo
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